Waiting.. And todays look!

As I am waiting for my Litas, I have googled around about the size for these shoes, if they're big, small, or true to size.

....most of the reviews I've read say that the shoes are quite small and narrow in size... 

Makes me worry if the shoes fit me at all, or if I have a slightest chance of getting my short fat foot into those boots. :P "¤HUI/R¤#LKSGVI/ WHY didn't I go safe and order in US6? Oh well. 

Let's hope for the best, eh?

*crosses fingers*

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Today's look!

Thought I'd finally used the white frame glasses I bought this summer! My hair is still yellorange, I'm bleaching it once more next week, and then (maybe after being blonde for a liiiittle while) I'm going PURPLE up in this bitch! 

♥

First exam of the semester is TOMORROW! Aaaaah! Let me run around the house and scream my lungs out for a minute k? I'm nervous. Well, not nervous about the exam. That is why I'm nervous. Why aren't I freaking out over this exam?

Hope it's because I've learnt what I need to learn, and not because I don't give a sh*t.

Let's hope for an A, people! *returns to kanji practice*

Busy bee, life and unicycling

I have so much to do lately, I have to be careful not to get all burned out. Phew!

I was supposed to blog about my gets from Galstar, but I can't find the USB cabel for my camera! So this'll be just a text entry. I was out with friends yesterday, celebrating my roomie Susannes 20th birthday! It was a lot of fun, and today I've been: 

1. Sleeping

2. Discovering Youtubers like Jack and Finn Harries, Tyler Oakley, Caspar Lee etc

3. Sleeping more

4. Eating cake

Yes.

I was supposed to work more on my halloween costume (yay!), but yesterdays intake of white wine had clearly changed my schedule. I've done a bit of cleaning though, og me!

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Lately I haven't felt like myself, it's like a new personality is trying to come through, and I don't know why it's happening, or if I'm just imagining things. Am I losing myself, my identity, and having it replaced with something else? Something better, or worse?

I'm kinda confused whether I should continue my dreams on becoming a fashion/clothing designer, or do something completely different. I'm afraid I'll never be good enough to get a stabile income from it, or that I'll be sick of it all within two years. I know I'm not the only one with these issues, and that I in reality should just suck it up since other people have far much worse problems, but I just need to let out a little steam since I don't really know who to talk to about these kind of things.

Whenever I go inside my own personal bubble to reflect on things I usually get over whatever problem I have and move on, but now it seems like my insecurities are going to stick for a while.

But really though, I do feel a bit better just by writing this down and putting my thoughts into structured sentences :) Maybe I just needed this! 

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Here's a video that made me smile today:

All this youtube exploring makes me want to try vlogging :)

Have a nice weekend!

A bit tired..

This will be a pretty emotional post, just so you know!

After a week of partying, your head will become a giant lump of mush, and you will start to question everything you ever done and everything you want to do with your life.

Today I've been thinking a lot, and it seems I've lost my way of things.. In my career path, my love life and how I see myself. Do I really want to work with clothing/shoes, why am I studying Japanese? Should I just forget about him and find someone else? Who the fuck am I, and how do others perceive me? I just feel hopeless, lonely and unsure of everything, and I hope it's just because I've been drinking for 5 days straight, and that it'll pass.. : /

One other thing that also gets me down, is that some of my friends have broken up with each other, which really breaks my heart. My thoughts go out to you all, I wouldn't even wish heartbreak for my worst enemies.. Look forward to better days, it WILL get better! ♥

So, yeah... I'm not in tip top shape nowadays, let's cross our fingers that it'll be over soon! 

Do any of you have any tips on how to feel better about yourself? I like to watch documentaries, and play Zelda :)

YAY and MEH.

YAY.

I get to exchange the Runwaydreamz shorts! I sent it yesterday, with my measurements and such, very detailed with drawings and everything haha. It needs to fit!

I just hope I get them before I move to Bergen! T_T

Speaking of Bergen..

Me and Emilie haven't found a place to live yet :( The real estate prices are ridiculous, and there are more people than apartments.

I just hope I can avoid sleeping on a matress in a hall for the first month..! That would be horrible! But maaaybe Oda also will join us, so that makes it a bit easier finding a place to live.

So we'll see.

I just hate the uncertainty of it! Not knowing if I get in, not knowing if I'll actually get a roof over my head, and if I can afford that roof without working my ass off while trying to study.

MEH.

*goes off to eat some breakfast/lunch*

Silence..

As the warm weather decided to go away, my life 'spark' has been reduced yet again.

Thinking too much.

About Bergen

- Will I get someplace to live?

- Will I handle the school life again? Did I ever handle school that well? No..

- How painful will it be to live 3 years 631 km away from my boyfriend, maybe more?

- Will I succeed?

- Will I fail?

About life after Bergen

- Then what?

- Studies in Japan?

- Start own business?

- Become a housewife?

- Work at Norfakta forever? :/

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I'm scared..

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The thinking has managed to make its way to my eating habits, and I hate it. I don't like being depressed and scared for what's inevitable. It's stupid.

Life's too short.