Busy bee, life and unicycling

I have so much to do lately, I have to be careful not to get all burned out. Phew!

I was supposed to blog about my gets from Galstar, but I can't find the USB cabel for my camera! So this'll be just a text entry. I was out with friends yesterday, celebrating my roomie Susannes 20th birthday! It was a lot of fun, and today I've been: 

1. Sleeping

2. Discovering Youtubers like Jack and Finn Harries, Tyler Oakley, Caspar Lee etc

3. Sleeping more

4. Eating cake

Yes.

I was supposed to work more on my halloween costume (yay!), but yesterdays intake of white wine had clearly changed my schedule. I've done a bit of cleaning though, og me!

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Lately I haven't felt like myself, it's like a new personality is trying to come through, and I don't know why it's happening, or if I'm just imagining things. Am I losing myself, my identity, and having it replaced with something else? Something better, or worse?

I'm kinda confused whether I should continue my dreams on becoming a fashion/clothing designer, or do something completely different. I'm afraid I'll never be good enough to get a stabile income from it, or that I'll be sick of it all within two years. I know I'm not the only one with these issues, and that I in reality should just suck it up since other people have far much worse problems, but I just need to let out a little steam since I don't really know who to talk to about these kind of things.

Whenever I go inside my own personal bubble to reflect on things I usually get over whatever problem I have and move on, but now it seems like my insecurities are going to stick for a while.

But really though, I do feel a bit better just by writing this down and putting my thoughts into structured sentences :) Maybe I just needed this! 

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Here's a video that made me smile today:

All this youtube exploring makes me want to try vlogging :)

Have a nice weekend!

Some small shopping

I've been feeling a bit low lately, so I did some shopping from Galstar to feel better. I know it sounds like a dangerous activity, but I really limited myself this time! *proud*

I need a pair of new everyday shoes/boots since I don't always feel comfortable or ~fab~ in sneakers, and I fell for these boots in grey:

Aren't they awesome? I want the ones in black and red as well, of course! OMG, the red ones. Now I'm starting to regret my choice of colour. Haha.

And with me, I can never buy only one thing when I'm ordering something online, so I bought a whole outfit! That is also a thing I've never done, there have never been much connection between the items I buy! I just buy what I think is cute :P

Simple dress, short black version

Isn't it cute? 

And I also bought awesome leggings in silver, showing here:

Since the shoes are from reservation, the items won't get despatched until September 20th. I can wait for my babies! 

Also, some posts back I told you guys about the freshmen/sponsor week here at uni, and that I was announced to be the best sponsor(yay!). I got a gift card at Galleriet with 1000NOK (~170USD), and last week I went shopping with that gift card! 

Here's some of my loot, I went bananas at H&M XD

 This is the only dress I have a picture of while I'm wearing it, it's soooo my new favorite party dress! Now if I only could get rid of my red hair..

Vinyl bag and oxford shoes, white polka dot salopette, black tulle dress, stripe pantyhose, a bra and leopard mini dress. Oh yes.

I also got this lovely kitch tea pot/thermos from Kitch'n with my gift card, isn't it gorgeous?

I'm in love with it ♥

A bit tired..

This will be a pretty emotional post, just so you know!

After a week of partying, your head will become a giant lump of mush, and you will start to question everything you ever done and everything you want to do with your life.

Today I've been thinking a lot, and it seems I've lost my way of things.. In my career path, my love life and how I see myself. Do I really want to work with clothing/shoes, why am I studying Japanese? Should I just forget about him and find someone else? Who the fuck am I, and how do others perceive me? I just feel hopeless, lonely and unsure of everything, and I hope it's just because I've been drinking for 5 days straight, and that it'll pass.. : /

One other thing that also gets me down, is that some of my friends have broken up with each other, which really breaks my heart. My thoughts go out to you all, I wouldn't even wish heartbreak for my worst enemies.. Look forward to better days, it WILL get better! ♥

So, yeah... I'm not in tip top shape nowadays, let's cross our fingers that it'll be over soon! 

Do any of you have any tips on how to feel better about yourself? I like to watch documentaries, and play Zelda :)

Silence..

As the warm weather decided to go away, my life 'spark' has been reduced yet again.

Thinking too much.

About Bergen

- Will I get someplace to live?

- Will I handle the school life again? Did I ever handle school that well? No..

- How painful will it be to live 3 years 631 km away from my boyfriend, maybe more?

- Will I succeed?

- Will I fail?

About life after Bergen

- Then what?

- Studies in Japan?

- Start own business?

- Become a housewife?

- Work at Norfakta forever? :/

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I'm scared..

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The thinking has managed to make its way to my eating habits, and I hate it. I don't like being depressed and scared for what's inevitable. It's stupid.

Life's too short.